Holidays....

So we're right in the thick of it.  Christmas is right around the corner.  Everyone is getting festive.  Lights are sprouting up in neighborhoods. Malls are packed with people and Christmas decorations.  The time for Joy and Happiness is here! Why does it feel like something is missing or different? Don't get me wrong, I'm so jazzed that its this time of year.  I'm very thankful for everything that has been given to me, work is going great, commissions are even better than last year, I'm surrounded by family and friends, much to be excited and happy for.  But deep down I know something is off.  I cant quite put my finger on it but I can reasonably deduct and get down to the heart of the matter. Now let me preface by saying I am in no way bitter at all in fact I'm not even complaining.  I'm just stating in my personal opinion, yeah its a little askew.  It doesn't mean that my Christmas spirit isn't complete just different...

I think Christmas obviously is all about giving.  Yeah when you were a little kid it was awesome to get presents, open them up, and get so into Christmas.  But now that we are older its obviously a lot more satisfying to watch the people you care about see how much thought you put into them in the form of a present. At least that's the way I feel. So naturally it feels different I guess because I don't really have anyone to share that with this year.  Its no secret I mean come on, if you experience the holidays with someone in a relationship its always going to be a little different. Not better but just different. Christmas lights are just a tad brighter, presents seem just a little less expensive, the songs are a little less annoying :), and the food...well the food is good regardless.  I dont care who I'm with or not, my moms spaghetti is still gonna be ridiculous ha!

All in all Christmas this year is going to be great, I get to see my little beautiful 7 year old cousin Tanya and my uncle Jay who I havn't seen in over a year, which I am really excited about. The Cowboys are 8-3, cant ask for anything better than that.  I get to have my annual margaritas with my good friend Christin at 7 salsas.  Obviously I get to see my whole family again which is always a blessing.  When I get back my friend Ali is taking me to the Cowboys - Redskins game here at Fedex Field and after that I get to go to Vegas for New Years and spend all my money that Ive saved up for the past 10 years... ALL OF IT! kidding...

Anyways, Its a little different this year,  But I still love it so much! Merry Christmas and have a great season! Ho Ho Huzzzz :)